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Makeup base!

2011-05-30T22:31:00.005+08:00

Okay, a post right before I sleep, which btw I'd slept less than 8 hours for the entire weekends combined. At times like this nothing beats the companionship of trusty caffeine! Anyway this post is about some of the makeup bases I'd used for the past two plus years.

Gowoonsesang, Cle de Peau, Laneige and Olay. (from left to right)

Honestly, Gowoonsesang was something I used less than 15 times on different separated occasions so I can't really comment on the usefulness of it. It was... ...okay I guess. Made in Korea with SPF 30 PA++, supposedly made by a Doctor (called Gowoonsesang??) and it was supposed to help in healing of skin, et cetera... But really the reason I bought it was because I have an awful sunburn the day before and thought the SPF would help me for the week to come. After that one week I stopped using it and I only used it when I go to the beach. To date I still have like 2/3 of it left despite buying it two years ago! It was my first makeup base, after that I stop for a good one year before I start buying again. It was $45+ I think.

Olay Regenerist-- I bought it because I read in makeupalley.com that it could double up as a makeup base on top of providing the anti-aging properties that your skin needs. When I first tried it in drugstore, the gel like cream texture glided on the skin of my hand and made my skin soft and baby smooth. This has zero coverage but can make your skin smooth so that makeup glide on it easier and stay longer. Up till date I still use but I mixed with my Laneige BB cream and somehow this two work like magic.

Laneige Snow BB cream is something I bought from a sales at... ... $10!!! HAHAHAAAA!!!! Probably one of the cheapest makeup I bought of all times and definitely worth it's price! It makes your skin looks slightly flush pink (due to pink undertone) but what I don't like is that it is easy to over apply. And when you over apply, it makes your skin looks two different tones from your eyes and T-zone when it oxidised. So not pretty. Works great when I mixed with Olay Regenerist.

Cle de Peau costed me $110+. The single most expensive makeup item I had ever buy including all my powders, mascaras, eyeliners, blah blah blah. Is it worth it? I'm not sure. I guess it prevents my powder from oxidising at a quicker rate. 10 hours later my makeup still looks relatively fresh. If you wears this without make up, it literally makes your skin looks radiant! However I find that it works the same way when I mixed my Laneige BB cream + Olay. Even if I had bought my BB cream at full price, I could still get my Olay and it for less than a hundred bucks. Plus Cle de Peau is of smaller size. Keep oxidation a couple of hours longer than Laneige but nothing too significant.

Okay going to end now. I'm sleeeeeepppinnnnggg! BYE!

Departure.

2011-05-15T20:28:00.004+08:00

Somehow I don't feel attached to this blog, this space after soooo long, somewhere since late last year. The reason probably because of my boyfriend, who was with me practically all my waking hours, beside working and certain days. Even then, we're always on the phone for hours till no end.

Another, because I got to know people who seemed really genuinely interested in what I'm saying or going to say so I no longer felt I have to express my thoughts and feelings through this space.

And last but not least, I don't feel "free" expressing whatever I have to say after knowing certain people I don't want to be reading my blog read my blog. I don't like to have this auto filter inside of me telling me what to write or don't write. To publish or not to publish. To risk criticisms or not to risk criticisms.

I'll still write and keep this blog but departure is inevitable in the near future. Till then, I'll keep writing, filtered words-- for now.

Some of my reviews.

2011-04-22T08:41:00.009+08:00

These are some of the powders I have.

The most expensive one is the mineral powder in spherical box which costs me $80 plus. I know it's not really expensive to some of you rich people but it is to me. Bought it like, in 2010 April? Fast forward a year later it's still good for me and what's more 1/3 left! : ) Unfortunately it's half a shade too dark for me so Imma have to mix this with some other powders every time I use it. Oh I'm already using the lightest shade already, so I'm guessing it doesn't come in right shades for half of you people out there!

Next up I love clinique loose powder! :) As you can see from the photo I have two of those! Actually it's my fourth bottle already! I've been using it in 2007. This is the third makeup powder I had bought and I fell in love with it and still loving it four years from then! ♥ That made me totally fell in love with loose powder instead of foundation. See, I'm so gonna buy their new formula superbalanced clinique powder! :DD

Let's see, I have Elizabeth Arden powder too which is alright... Ettusias which was a disappointment. Btw, it's a total waste of my $67! #%$&%@

The rest of the powders or foundations as you called them. I had them bought in early 2007 which was when I first put on mkeup. ZA was my first foundation. Wait, it was body shop but I don't really use it? ZA was good but... clogged my pores like mad! Gave me white + blackheads which lasted for like weeks. : ( But most of the people I know who used it and still using it found it good, so different skin differs.

Fasio was my second. They're too orangey for my skin!!! Made me look like erm, banana? Loreal mineral was basically one of the first drugstore mineral powders when the craze for mineral powder first started. Wasn't really good but I'm sure they've improved by now. Was too chalky and the coverage too thick for my liking.

Oh I only use loose powder now and I've never tried liquid or cream foundation. I have a friend who uses cream foundation and it really works and looks great on her. But the idea of cream or liquid makes me think of clogged pores and too thick coverage! I like my powder to feel light and minimal coverage so at least skin looks natural? I don't use foundation now either. Foundation have thicker coverage than loose powder and I don't like the effect it gave. You can tell the person is putting on foundation even from afar and to me less is more!

So that's basically the end of my powders reviews. This is really my own opinion and every different people reacts differently. I do not like foundation maybe because I tried on cheaper brands and I had not tried them long enough to impress me one bit.

Now I want Clinique superbalance and SKII pancake! Buy for me you rich people!!!

To be or not to be.

2011-04-16T00:36:00.002+08:00

I don't want to be the type of girl you called nice. Because you will only take advantage of me.
I don't want to be the type of girl you called innocent. Because you will only take me as a fool.
I don't want to be the type you called dependable. Because you will only walk out on me.
I don't want to be the type of girl you called good nature. Because you will only test my temper.
I don't want to be the type of girl you called a listener. Because you will never listen to me speak.

I don't want to be your friend.
I don't want to be your lover.
I don't want to take your side always.

Because I'm sick of being walked out on, trampled on, taken advantage of, shut out from and never being taken seriously by you. You cannot and will never do the same for me as I will do for you.

And now?

I don't want to do or be anything to you.

The curse of Vanity.

2011-03-21T22:10:00.003+08:00

For every compliment that falls, I'll stare at the mirror ten times longer. And harder.

One year anniversary.

2011-03-13T21:39:00.002+08:00

In less than a week, in fact days, it will be our one year anniversary! : ) Thank you for being the person who stood by me for two years and counting and always there for me when I'm sad, happy, mean and crazy.

I love that there's no breakup in between, with you it just didn't seem like goodbye at all.

And I go back to December all the time.

2011-03-07T21:02:00.000+08:00

Avril's.

2011-03-03T21:47:00.000+08:00

I miss alone time.

2011-02-27T10:02:00.005+08:00

Sparkles. :)

I miss alone time. When is the last time I have time for myself? Today will be alone time with myself this short afternoon before I meet my bf in the later evening. And what will I do with this time alone? Head to the library. :)

No title.

2011-02-23T20:15:00.000+08:00

One fine sunny day, suddenly nothing seems so fine anymore.

Happy Vday to all in advance.

2011-02-11T20:34:00.002+08:00

And this is why I love love.

I can feel your heartbeat, he said to me.

2011-02-08T06:28:00.005+08:00

I don't want this to end.
Please don't catch up with me.

Happy!

2011-02-02T19:36:00.004+08:00

Bye Singapore!
I'm officially on one week leave starting... ....
TODAY!!!! :DDD

2011-01-31T14:25:00.000+08:00

Woohoo! I'm on one week leave next week!!! :DDD

Nothing beats the original.

2011-01-17T22:06:00.000+08:00

2010-12-27T11:27:00.001+08:00

So shiok to be at home at this hour of the day. But not so shiok when you had to go to the toilet to shit the hell out of yourself every hour.

Merry Christmas!

2010-12-25T13:06:00.005+08:00

Merry Christmas!
Did you guys have fun as well? : )
Remember to kiss some girls this season!

Bye bye!

Wish I'm skinny like this.

2010-12-18T01:13:00.004+08:00

But I'm as fat as a turkey. Merry Xmas.

2010-12-12T22:02:00.001+08:00

Thank you Boyfriend for being the exact person I've been dreaming of.

Impromptu visit to the beach.

2010-12-05T16:36:00.008+08:00

With pretty girl from SIA. :)

Pretty waves.

Fried buttered prawns! :D

This is what we two girls ate! Super alot!

And we swept them off... sinful.

List of things I abhor

2010-11-27T12:24:00.003+08:00

1. Pimples. I don't even know of any particular people who like getting pimple on their faces? So enough said.

2. Constipation. This is really knnccb. I hate constipation to the max. I realised that whenever I have constipation, I'll have pimples popping out as well. And to add salt to the wound, I can't have flat tummy. There will be an awful bulge in my lower abdomen when I don't shit for more than 3 days. Say bye to tight fitting dresses.

3. Waking up in the middle of the night. Okay here I am sleeping at 12a.m. when I have to wake up at 5:30a.m. for work tomorrow, then then ta-dah, I have to wake up all of a sudden at like 3a.m. in the morning??? FML.

4. Singtel bills.

5. Ezcema. Don't like them at all. No, hate them.

6. My eye make up running in the middle of the day. HEY, hello, I need to meet people, so tell me wtf will they think of me????

To be myself.

2010-11-20T14:03:00.007+08:00

Emma Watson cut her hair short just days after she finished filming the last Harry Potter's movie, "Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows".

Why?

Because she wanted to be herself. So that no one will ever associate her with her famous character Hermione Granger.

And the same reason why I cut my long waist length hair short. I wanted to be myself too. And being myself means doing the things I like.

I wanted to cut short hair for years. Yes, years of contemplating and hesitation. Because face it, I look best in long tresses. But all it took is one second, one minute of walking passed a hair saloon, one minute for me to gain that leap of faith, one minute to sum up my entire hesitations over the years, and there you go-- my long tousled hair had to go.

It just had to go. I can't explain in words. For a year I had been battling with my long tresses. I don't like it anymore. I'd tied it up, I'd bun it up, I'd curled it up, but-- I don't like it anymore.

I cut it thinner and thinner, layered and layered and one day I just looked at it in disgust. This is not me. No, no feeling of the omph factor when I looked at any long hair not just my own hair. Long hair no longer seemed pleasant in my eyes.

And you have no idea how much of a relief when I finally walked out of the saloon with my new short haircut.

Anyway, my point is, you have to be yourself in your awfully short lifetime. No, cutting your hair short for once doesn't make you to be yourself. Doing the things you like or want to do is becoming you. You have to keep on changing while you becoming you.

There's a lot of things I wanted to do like skate boarding, scuba diving, bungee jumping... etc, and I'm going to do it. Cutting short hair is just a start. ;)

P.S. Going to catch Harry Potter movie later tonight! xoxo

2010-11-17T22:51:00.002+08:00

Best time to cam-whore is between the time you finished putting your make up and waiting for your boyfriend to fetch you. Because your makeup is still fresh and you're all dress up.

If there's something you can't fake-- it's sincerity.

2010-11-11T23:01:00.004+08:00

Thanks for reminding.

I'd heard that.

我寂寞寂寞就好你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑

2010-10-31T22:47:00.001+08:00

1. Believing in that "mirage".

2010-10-31T02:46:00.004+08:00

Everyone has an idealistic belief inside each of us. It's something we hold firm to, it's something we believe in and put our heart and soul and mind in it. And because we put our heart and soul and mind in the belief, once taken away from us, it'll destroy us.

Take for example, work place. Our idealistic work place is probably when we are able to do something which we like and getting a good pay for it. In our idealistic mindset, it's a place without office politics, a place where we and all our other colleagues will work hard, and strive for a company who in turn cares equally as much or more about employees well beings. This is the ideal workplace for each of us and is made believe in our mind that this place actually exists. But I call it "mirage". Because like someone so thirsty in the desert, they are willing to believe in anything that held the reflection of water and this is what keeps them going. Or destroy them.

Let's say there this person call "Mary". Mary is a fresh graduate, hardworking and likable girl. Mary believe in the "mirage" I've mentioned in the above paragraph. But as time went by, Mary realised that the people around her wasn't as nice as she thought and they were now exploiting her kindness and took her helpfulness for granted. In her mind Mary thought that colleagues were supposed to work hard together and strive in a one big family kind of way. But as time went by, Mary became more resentful working in the place she deemed as "un-idealistic". Finally on one fine day, an unjust incident of another colleague took the last straw and Mary decided to call it quit.

The unjust incident happened on another colleague who is just as nice as Mary and no one stood up for her though she was wrongly accused. This probably took every last bit of her hopeful expectations held for the place and Mary believing in the "mirage" she saw, quitted and moved on to another place.

The "mirage" is the belief that there is a better place, a place that matches her ideal workplace somewhere further in the desert and Mary is now sent out there looking, searching for the false image held close to her mind.

What Mary didn't realised is, a "mirage" is well, a mirage and she will keep on looking, searching until it slowly sink upon her that the place she's looking for in her mind didn't exist. When one day the truth hits her, Mary will become an increasingly bitter and resentful person and like all the other slacken workforce people whom we seen now in the society, they too had once searched for the same mirage Mary searched for all her youth.

2010-10-24T15:24:00.003+08:00

After I blogged about the tittle "Sleepy cat" (with no relevant to cat), I literally found a sleepy cat on my window pane!!! :DD

Sleepy cat.

2010-10-24T13:09:00.007+08:00

I decided to postpone my makeup craving till later... when I can finally decided on what to buy. Anyway, I thought I'll just blog since I have nothing better to do and just woke up from my afternoon nap.

Anyway, I had my xiaolongbao at Ding Tai Feng again yesterday!! :D Bought 10 this time and I ate like 6 of them? HAHA! So mad love! I would finish all of them if I didn't feel so guilty about leaving my bf with none!

Then my bf went to see a doctor and between registering and consultation I literally slept on the sofa at the reception for one hour before bf woke me up and we went home. When we reached home I slept from 5-9 while bf went out and met his friends. He woke me up for prata at Thomson Road later and after prata and a plate of mee goreng, I went and slept AGAIN!!! I'm literally quite amazed by the amount of hours I can sleep.

Anyway that's not the end of it, bf sent me home around 3a.m. after I woke up and I went home to sleep from 4-10a.m. afterwards. And this morning after a hearty breakfast I slept for another one hour and just woke up.

I think I slept close to twenty hours for the entire one and a half day but now I'm sleepy again. My eyes are literally like this : -.-

Oh, fyi, in between my waking period I shitted four times and thus my conclusion is that I'm full of shit. I don't really know where all these shit came from because I shitted four times daily since Wednesday! No laxative! Okay, kthxb!

This photo because it imitated a genuine smile best.

2010-10-18T22:40:00.004+08:00

Cam whore day because makeup is good for that day (only).
I'm having migraine now because of lack of sleep.

2010-10-16T10:22:00.005+08:00

KNS! How come when you're craving for one thing then all of a sudden you'll start craving for other things too?!!??!?! I want this that, this that, this that!!!! :( I got no money leh, craving please restraint yourself!! :((((

When I finally set my mind to buying ONLY Laura's TM, then I thought to myself why have new TM only when I have no setting powder? So I start fantasizing about the new setting powder I should buy. Hmmm, Mac sounds like a good brand and it's only $35... but wait, why don't I buy youngblood instead, it only cost like $10 more and it's mineral!

Okay, so why have a new TM, setting powder and completely forgetton all about the primer?!!?!?!? Makeup is not complete if you don't have a primer right? I mean nobody wants their makeup to be half gone by mid day, so primer is a must! AND I haven't been using any of it in all of my 21 years of living!!! OH GOSH!!! Now I'm feeling like I'm committing a serious makeup crime! Primer, let's see.. ... Channel?

Oh, and I would do with those Dior undereye concealer too. I mean why have nice looking complexion when you totally ignore your dull tired looking eyes right? Nobody wants to look like they're soulless right??? I mean eyes are the windows of your soul, so at least try to look awake!!! And Dior has so much good reviews already, I really should try some...

OH GOSH!!! Wait!!! How would I forget my lips as well?!?! I know I've already decided to ONLY get the Nars lipgloss but I would really be saving on the shipping fees if I get Smashbox's as well right? Because if I ship them individually over it's going to cost soooo much more! And it's all in USD! So Nars and Smashbox it is??? And why don't I get some in my own country in Singapore too? How about Revlon? Because trust me, how much could a drug store make up cost?

Wait!! MY EYES MY EYES!!! I forgotten to buy some new eyeliner!!! Kate sounds good! But didn't I just bought one new one like three weeks ago?

No, let's go back to face, so Laura's TM! And a new primer? Channel or Laura? Hmmm, Mac or Youngblood? Or... Benefit? Wait, while I'm at it why don't I get some new highlighter as well???

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And then it starts all over again.
FML.

2010-10-08T21:09:00.003+08:00

Yes, I've decided. I'm so going to get Nars Lipgloss and Laura Mercier's TM! I'm going to skip Smashbox lipgloss because the reviews just don't seem to be as good as Nars!

US currency has hit an all time low, it's now safe to run out of my cave and buy the products!! HEHE! So in total I'll be saving in the long term right???

I mean if I buy in sg, for example, Laura Mercier's TM going to cost like $80++. Who's going to buy a TM costing that much anyway? While online through Sephora it's only SGD$56(before shipping!), after still below $65??? Nars? You can't even get that in Singapore! So buying online is the cheapest way! Wait, Kiehl is having sales too. Hmmm, delicious... BUT I'M NOT GOING GET THEM!!! Because I'm all about saving more money right?!!?!?

HEHE!! I think I skip drinking apple/orange juice everyday for lunch now since it costs $2!!! $2 x 22 = S44, will nicely pay my Nars lipgloss and the shipping fees! Who needs fruit juices when you can have the perfect looking pout in the color you want?!?!

I am so proud of myself!! I am so smart to come up with an awesome saving plan (by skipping fruit juice)!!! :D Bye everyone! I'm still all about saving money and more money!

Things I craved for and still craving for:

2010-10-03T09:35:00.005+08:00

Since I woke up at nine (slept at 3a.m.) and couldn't get back to sleep, I might as well blog because I have nothing better to do and all the evil makeup pamphlets around me is tempting me to buy them. Again. fml.

I know so far most people crave for branded bags, shoes, accessories, electronics, etc... ... but my real craving comes from cosmetics. I love cosmetics, I spent like AT LEAST a third of my salary on them monthly. Yes I'm guilty but I can't help buying them although for most I used less then three times and them chunk them aside when I found a new love. Yeah, I seriously hates this habits of mine. But anyway, I'll blog about the cosmetics that I can't wait to get my hands on with my next pay or next next pay!

Primer:
Benefit Stay don't stray
Benefit "That Girl"
Chanel Le Blanc

Okay currently Yours Truly does not use a primer, but... I think primer is a good idea! So I'm consider getting one, since not only does primer helps makeup stay longer but face it, it's just one of my silly cravings again because why? Because the packaging looks good. -.-

Oh yeah, I'm using Olay serum as substitute for primer because it contains silicon but it's not the same as real primer, isn't it??? Although it has anti-aging properties but but but, I just need to buy a real primer, right??

Tinted Moisturiser:
Laura Mercier tinted moisturiser
Clinelle tinted mosituriser

Again, I do not use a tinted mosituriser currently, but I'm tempted to buy because the reviews are soooo good. :(

Loose powder/ finishing powder:
Mac Prep and Prime transplarent loose powder
Young blood mineral rice setting powder

I think among all the make up, I spent the most on loose power (I don't use foundation), Clinique, Averine, Ettusias, Body shop, Fancl, Fasio, etc... .. Most of them range from $50 to $90. So yup, fml.

I previously hesitate buying youngblood because it contains some funny ingredients (Bismuth Oxychloride, mica, etc..) that may be allergy to skin, but then, I think I'm not allergy to the Bismuth Oxychloride anyway, so I'm now officailly lemming for it.

Eyeliner:
Revlon colorstay

Not because of the packaging but the reviews are so good and I would love to try them. Currently using a gel eyeliner I bought online. Super good, costs eleven bucks plus only! Singapore doesn't sell it though, can be bought from US only I think?? Not sure. It's in a lovely shade of dark creamy brown. : )

Lip Gloss:
Nars
Smashbox
Benefit Posietint

Ever since I tried benetint, I want posietint! Doesn't do much on the color though, just very moisturing. It's sixty plus if I'm not wrong and I'm better off getting a lip gloss from Nars! : '(

No craving for mascara, blusher, eyeshadows because I don't really use them? Blusher just doesn't suit me. haha. It made me looked like a painted red face doll. Urrgh. I have them in light pink, dark pink, soft red , peach, orange, but NONE looks good on me. A complete waste of my money.

Okay, that's all, going to continue playing iphone games! hehe, bb!

pffffttttttttttttttttt

2010-10-02T23:45:00.003+08:00

In case you're wondering how my diet going, it's not great. I ate.... .... a tons of things like roasted pork, char siew, a plate of noodles, duck (not whole), hor fan, seaweed, 4 fish balls and hor fun all in one day!!! Thanks, bf. Okay, someone please tell me what the fuck am I doing???

Skip that, it's depressing to even go into details. Anyway, I think I have great hair day today. It's light, bouncy and no frizz!!! When is the last time I actually had such great hair??? Happy! Maybe the new haircut attributes to it because a third of my volume is gone and my face looks fat x 2! haha, but it's okay, it'll grow right?!?!?!

Kay, bye bye!

Fat fat.

2010-09-26T21:07:00.007+08:00

My second post today! I've just reached home and I'm inspired to blog by well, drum roll, my fatness! Anyway, fml, I'm still drinking my 70% sugar level each-a-cup bubble tea!

Okay, I know I said this like weeks ago that I'm going to lose weight. But the unfortunate circumstances here is that I'm still going to lose weight and NOT already lost weight. That pretty much sums up my determination.

But today I was wearing shorts and I took a good look at my thighs or lump of fats if you prefer to call it, and I'm ultimate gross out.

I hate it!! Okay, let me write down the facts for you:

1) I know I'm not fat.
2) Neither am I slim.
3) In fact you would call me healthy size (fuck healthy size).
4) I FEEL FAT.

Okay, you know it's like if someone were to lose his job, he'll feel like it's the end of the world but TECHNICALLY, it's not the end of the world (obviously). And this is the same way I feel about myself: TECHNICALLY I'm not fat but I feel like I could make an elephant looks like Megan Fox by standing next to it.

I always think if you don't like something about yourself, not just looks, but personality, the people you hang out with, etc... change it. BY CHANGING, you will be living in something you like, not wish to like. After all you only have one life and hell, I'm going to live it in the way I like my life to be.

So this long post is dedicate to my commitment to lose 2kg?? HAHAHHAAA. How? By not eating. But I have to eat next week because my boyfriend will be around me the entire next week. AND yesterday he convinced me to have a MAC meal at 2a.m. in the morning and sleeping right after that. fml x 100000. Point is I'd taken a full dinner at home and later at hawker after that. : (

This is my crazed up plan (already seen much disapproval from my colleagues although I haven't even started!):

1) Skip lunch. Only eat fruits. I'm only going to bring $1.50 with me from tomorrow onwards to work! Screw lunch, who needs fucking lunch anyway!
2) No bubble tea for a month from now.
3) Screw dinner. Laxative will be my best friend!!! In fact having said that, I'm going to eat laxative later. (said and done!)
4) Run once week. I'm sorry, I just couldn't bear to bring myself to say three times a week.
5) Transform this blog to a temporary thinpos blog (google if you don't know what I mean) for the time being.

Because it's fun!

2010-09-26T11:20:00.005+08:00

MAKE-UP
1. What foundation do you use?
Erm, don't use any. I use loose powder.

2. How about concealer?
Bobby Brown and ZA

3. Do you know your undertone color?
Yellow. : (

4. What do you think of fake eyelashes?
Erh, not my cup of tea. Never put them on, though I have a few at home.

5. Did you know that you are suppose to change your mascara every 3 months?
Yup, but I never been able to finish them, not even if I used them for six month straight!!! : (((

6. What brand of mascara do you use?
Currently haven't been putting any since June. Previously, Majolica Majorca.

7. Sephora, drugstore or departmental store?
Sephora but it's soooo expensive!!!

8. Do you use mac?
Nope.

9. What makeup tools do you use in make up application?
Brushes and my ring finger!

10. Do you use make-up base/primer for the eyes?
Nope!

11. For the face?
Nope!

12. What is your favorite highlight powder?
Canmake!

13. Contour?
Nope!

14. What is your favorite eyeshadow (color or shade)?
None. I don't use eyeshadow either, though just bought the 88 Coastal Scents palette for fun.

15. Do you line your eyes?
Yup!

16. Tightline?
Not really, but if I'm in a rush, yes. Tightline makes eyeliner easier to glide on.

17. Do you use pencil or liquid eyeliner?
Yup, pencil, liquid, gel... you name it!

18. How often do you poke your eyes with an eyeliner pencil?
Hardly and almost never.

19. What do you think of pigment eyeshadows?
I think it's great, but not really for me. I can't pull off that look.

20. Do you use mineral makeup?
Yes, I bought a lot actually but I only use one?

21. What is your favorite lipstick?
Hehe, I'm using Maybeline sometimes but it's not my favourite.

22. How about lipgloss?
Alot!!! Benetint still rocks the list!

23. What blush do you use?
Don't use blush as well!

24. Type or brand or name?
Not really??

25. Do you buy your makeup on ebay?
Bought lots online, yes. But not on ebay!

26. Do you like drugstore makeup?
Yes, why the hell not?

27. Did you ever consider taking make-up classes?
Yes.

28. Are you clumsy in putting on makeup?
I could be.

29. Name a makeup crime that you hate.
This take the cake-- putting on eye concealer that is one or two shade lighter than the rest of your skin color! Next up, eyebrows badly drawn.

30. Do you like colorful shades of makeup (lipstick,eyeshadow) or neutral ones?
Neutral. I'm a boring person.

31. Can you share a make up trick that you know?
Q-tip!

32. Which celebrity always has great make up?
All the actress on 90210!

33. Can you make a "cat eye" wing?
Yup.

34. If you could leave the house using just ONE make up item,what would you use?
Concealer or lip gloss.

35. Could you ever leave the house without any makeup on?
Yup, but rarely.

36. Do you think you look good even without any makeup on?
Nope.

37. In your opinion, what is the BEST makeup line?
No best yet!

38. Would you ever consider permanent makeup?
Probably never???

39. Have you ever work in a cosmetic line?
Yup!

Isn't it some of us?

2010-09-22T20:57:00.003+08:00

Beside it being all about Jessica Lowdes (and it's Shannon Dorothy!), but isn't it some of us here?

We turned away because it's just too painful to say goodbye.

Things that makes me broke.

2010-09-19T12:54:00.003+08:00

Hello kitty.

And I bought an eyeliner as well. Oh yeah, and a lipstick.

Senior year, baby!

2010-09-18T07:37:00.003+08:00

OMG!!! 90210 Seaon 3 is finally out!!! :DD

I just reached home 7a.m. in the morning, tired. BUT I'M SO WATCHING IT NOW!!!

2010-09-16T22:39:00.002+08:00

My colleagues scared me by telling me I could go deaf or blind if I pierce my ears and don't know where. :' (

Now don't dare go pierce already!!!! T.T

PISSED OFF.

2010-09-15T23:08:00.002+08:00

I want to rant and I just sent 15 sms-es at one shot to one #@&$$%*%#. This is how I feel about you right now.

Maybe your idea of fun is to !@$@^& after 1-2 hours of meeting up. But mine sure ISN'T. Maybe you think I have to/should/must @#$#^^&^&^%* you but I DON'T have to.

Maybe you think @#@%$&%^* is something I should be grateful about, but do I?

Do I have to take all your @%*&&*%^&&???

No I don't. I'm telling myself I could walk away from it all now.

Ding Tai Feng.

2010-09-13T20:59:00.006+08:00

Xiao long bao is Love. :)
But I'm sick for the entire weekend.
Totally wasted. :((
Doesn't stop me from going out though.

Anyway, gonna get one more piercing either this week or next week! :D

Happy for two reasons:

2010-09-03T00:01:00.004+08:00

1) Baby is going to fetch me back from work tomorrow! :D First time he's going to do that and plus it saves me time from waiting for the 35 mins frequency bus!!! But then I tell him not to since it might be too rush for him. :(

2) Finally a fucking closure. No longer have to stare at your loathsome face but I'm sure it's some unspoken mutual understanding between us! Seriously from the way you stared at me just now, or more like glared, just fuck you. Screw you up and over again! HAHA! Pay me up and then I can put this awful chapter of my life close. F you!!! Should have been long gone.

Pretty Jessica Lowndes.

2010-09-01T21:19:00.003+08:00

Why I love Jessica Lowndes.

2010-09-01T21:16:00.000+08:00

One word: hot.

Things I don't understand:

2010-08-29T03:30:00.001+08:00

Why is everyone so head over heels in love with Twitter??

Even Barack Obama has it.

Hi warm fuzzy feeling.

2010-08-24T20:54:00.001+08:00

Things in my head.

2010-08-19T20:53:00.004+08:00

I'm thinking about a lot of things. Things like:

1) When will I ever cut my hair short?
2) I hate working life.
3) My boyfriend.
4) How many kids do I want to have? (anyway it's 5, in case you want to know)
5) Urrgh, I seriously hate working life.
6) Why is Jessica Lowndes , Alessandra Ambrosio, Angelina Jolie, Megan-fucking-hot-fox so hot?
7) Why don't I look anywhere close to them?!?!
8) I'm soo fucking oh-my-godness-I-can-no-longer-see-my toes kind of fat.
9) :( fml.
10) I miss boyfriend.

90210 rocks

2010-08-17T21:39:00.002+08:00

I'm going to start losing weight. I'm serious. I look sooo bloated all the time, it's disgusting to be under my skin.

Sunday afternoons.

2010-08-16T00:19:00.004+08:00

Things I love:
Me waking up from afternoon nap and finding you right beside me. Treasure. I would secretly peek at your ever so peaceful sleeping face from under the blanket. And then always, always without fail, a smile would slowly form on your lips and you would greet me, "yes, darling?".

Just like magic.

KNS, why Jessica Lowndes so hot?!?!?!?

2010-08-14T11:12:00.007+08:00

It's 10.30a.m.and I've just reached home and going out again in one hour time. :(

fml.

And I went out since 7:00 a.m. yesterday.

Out of topic, but 90210 casts are soooo prettyyy. :( Have I blog about it before? But I'm in love with both Jessicas. Lowndes owned alllll.............. :D

Some photos of lovely Lowndes:

Demure girl-next-door.

Sporty.

Hwat.

Sex goddess.

KNS!! This girl is mad. All photos above are the SAME fucking person!!!! HOW CAN SOMEONE LOOK SO PRETTY IN ALL SORT OF DIFFERENT LOOKS AND HAIRSTYLES?!!??!!?!! God is soooo unfair.

FML x 1000000000000000. :(

I love my boyfriend. :)

2010-08-12T21:45:00.002+08:00

For being the most understanding person I've ever known.
For always giving in to me.
For believing that we'll be together.
For just letting me be me and still love me although I'm such a brat.

He won't be reading this blog because he doesn't even know my blog address.
But he is somebody I'll miss even if I've never met him.

Even when there's time when I feel unhappy in this relationship, I know I'm the luckiest girl to met someone like him in my life.

2010-08-11T20:51:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow will be the start of my many busy days ahead. :(

shitting!

2010-08-07T15:08:00.003+08:00

Okay, here's something everyone does but hardly anybody talks about! :D It's shitting!

I seriously don't know about you, but I love shitting. It makes me ultra happy whenever I shit. I love shitting. On days I don't shit, I'll feel uncomfortable because my mind will imagine all the shit piling up at the end of my large intestine, at my rectum, all the way to my small intestine, whatever.

So anyway, this randomness started last week when my colleagues talked about shitting. One of my colleagues hadn't shitted for more than a week and she was asking me what to do to make her shit. Another one was telling me how sometimes when she shits, she'll pass out blood. Talk about things I don't want to happen to me! The last time I haven't shit more than a week was years ago!

Anyway, this sparked off my eagerness to shit more. It's like someone asking you not to yawn and you suddenly have this strange unexplanable urge to yawn more. So yup, I suddenly have the urge to shit more. So guess what?

Three days ago, I went to Watson and bought a solution that helps relieve constipation! Of course I don't have constipation but I haven't shitted for two days already. So good news, Since three days ago, I've been shitting twice a day!! :DD Even though I've only eaten one dosage three days ago and stopped, but I still continue to shit! So f-ing happy lur! :D

Because I am someone who don't eat vegetables, so I'm happy to be able to shit and best of all it costs less than eleven bucks only!! :DD So bye. It's called Lactus if you're wondering.

P.S. I've already shitted twice today although it's not even 4p.m.

Meet Dopey.

2010-08-04T22:37:00.000+08:00

Happy belated birthday! :)

2010-08-02T20:16:00.003+08:00

Stop saying I'm heartless!

2010-07-27T18:30:00.005+08:00

Anyway, these will be the last few days that I'm free. Yesterday I stumbled upon an old friend's younger sister's face book and got a shock. She's married with baby and about 5 years younger than me. And what am I most surprise about? The other people who had commented on her fb status are all married with babies. And I spotted about 7 of them (all younger than me), and one of them a girl whom used to study in the same school as me. Well, also younger.

Actually there's really nothing surprising about it. I've friends getting married as early as they're sixteen (is it even legal???). All shotgun, another no surprise. Recently I ran into one of the girls whom got married at sixteen and she looks.... haggard. And pale. And well, haggard and pale. I wouldn't even recognise her if I had not accidentally ran my eyes across her shirt to her... name tag which she forgotten to unpin.

And then I wonder, did she ever regret? Of course I know the joy of being mother. Apart from dirty diapers, baby puke, I'm sure there's of course a lot of other thing to look forward to and enjoy. I mean who am I to comment, they already went on to another stage of their lives and became mothers while I'm still here behaving like a child. But really, for that one nanosecond of the moment I realised they could have like like mine(not that it's great to be living in my life). But you see, they could go traveling without any worries!

They could be like me, not really caring about the future. Or well, study. Or if they want to, club every weekends. Things like what all the people my age and me are doing. And everything went down when they get themselves impregnated. And then plans like traveling, studying would have to wait a decade.

Actually when I was sixteen I used to be scare that I'll have a shotgun!! LOL!! I always tell myself to be level headed and will never 1) have a one night stand, 2) have a shot gun or, 3) get myself pregnant and don't know who the father was!! HAHAHAAAAA!!!!

So anyway, years passed and ta-da, I made it to legal age of twenty one without any of the above three!!! :DDD In fact I'm quite proud of myself because:

I made it passed twenty one WITHOUT having:

1) PREMARITAL SEX!!! HAHAHA, despite the fact that all of you all would think I'm ancient, BUT I'm happy!!! Because premarital sex is the root of all problems I stated for the above three. So as long as I DON'T have premarital sex, I won't have a shot gun, one night stand and don't know who the father of my child is.

2) I don't go clubbing like some of my peeps every weekends or alternate weeks!!!

3) I haven't pick up the habit of smoking!!!! :DDD

4) I haven't went into any cinema to watch RA! Despite being the legal age!

5) I do not take drugs.

Okay, going now. Ciao!

webcam. Larger than life.

2010-07-27T01:59:00.005+08:00

I'm sick of this. Hanging.

Flowers for Algernon.

2010-07-26T02:07:00.001+08:00

Cluttered.

2010-07-23T03:43:00.003+08:00

My life is in a clutter. Like the clothes in my bedroom. Cluttered, splattered and all over the place. The floor, the desk, the chairs, the wardrobe, basically-- everywhere. And my life is exactly like my clothes and the boxes of cosmetics invading my room.

My. Life. Is. In. A. Mess.

Like wires. Like earpieces. Even if we leave them alone, untouched. When we reached out for them, they got tangled somehow. And my life got tangled somehow. Or perhaps the problem is I left it alone. Except for far too long.

No title.

2010-07-19T00:10:00.005+08:00

Got a new hair cut! I think my fringes is obviously shorter and my hair volume a lot thinner. :( But well, bf commented there's no differences.

The lip balm I bought from bkk. Approximately SGD$11. Free of parabens/propylene glycol/petroleum derivative/silicone/synthetic colors. Ingredients? Jasmine rice germ oil, coconut oil, rice bran oil, sweet almond oil, jojoba oil, turmeric oil, aloe butter, shea butter, beewax, honey, aloe vera.

Ellen Page from Inception. Well, she's the I-just-woke-up-and-threw-on-this-old-pair-of-jeans-and-tshirt-and-happen-to-look-gorgeous-like-hell kind of girl. Nothing like Megan Fox but pretty in the girl next door type. Totally adore her.

BKK

2010-07-16T11:31:00.006+08:00

I miss you... :(

2010-07-14T01:40:00.011+08:00

I'm fat and I know I don't look it in the photo. But all my colleagues are asking me to lose weight and I probably should. Okay, here goes nothing... Maybe if I could finally summon up enough willpower to resist the darn Nutella chocolate jam... ...

Oh yeah and I have heat rashes ALL OVER MY LEGS and patches here and there on my face! FML!!!!

Anyway, going to watch Despicable Me the second time with boyfriend this weekend! :D Caught Eclipse the first day it was out, but seriously Twilight book fans should all skip it!

Bye now!

Growing up.

2010-06-30T00:59:00.008+08:00

It will be my birthday soon. I supposed it doesn't matter because to tell you the truth, I've never been a big fan of birthdays. I never had the I-woke-up-and-felt-special-because-it's-my-birthday-today kind of feeling. But this year so far I'm thankful I've got my boyfriend who had gone all way out to make things happy for me.

Anyway, the other day when I was bored to death working, I browsed through my old photos and look what I've found

2005:

2006:

2007:

Early part of 2008:

Later part of 2008:

Haha, I think I had some drastic changes along the way. My colleagues had a good laugh at my 2007 photos. Damn, I look manly! How the hell did I walk out of the house looking like that??? Shorter fringes obviously suited me more. Now I'm more mature looking. not in a good way though. :( People always think I'm 22 when I'm not! Okay lah only 2 person said so but still... ...:(

This is me now:

I know. I look damn mature lah. My eye makeup looks super thick but I swear it's the lights casting shadow on my face! Seriously lah. Nowadays I no longer wear black eye shadow either. Just a fine brown eyeliner but people still think I've put eyeshadow. So irritating to keep telling them the "eye shadow" is natural. =.=

Okay bye. It's very late. Nights.

And what's up with world cup???

2010-06-24T02:37:00.009+08:00

Here are the earrings I bought the other day! Pretty? I'm in love with it because it's soooo shinny! :D In real life lah, the photo doesn't do it justice! I remembered walking into the shop and bought it because it's the shiniest earrings on the rack! HAHAAAA!!!

Anyway, here are the food we had at Thai Express the other day:

Yummy, no? I know it looks like some fried chicken, but it's thai curried softshell crab!

I think this one looks yummier, not mine though. :( Seafood something.

And we ordered some other side dishes which was equally yummy, if not yummier! Now you know the reason why I'm getting fatter by the seconds!

Yup, we had japanese food at UE Square too. The food is super YUMMY but super expensive too!! :( I tasted the best salmon in Singapore and everyone around us was watching world cup and cheering on?? And yes, I had a sinful double bacon beef burger at Burger King! I might as well just go ahead and shoot myself!!

Anyway, sidetrack a bit, the other day when I was walking pass Suntec after work, someone approached me offering me a sales position. 2k basic, not including commission which is quite a lot to me. Hmmm, should I? :( I told them to give me till mid July to think, but it seemed too good to be true, especially when I search through jobstreet, etc, they usually offer only 1.6-1.8k for diploma holders with not much experience.

The best thing you could do with SGD $8.

2010-06-21T17:46:00.004+08:00

That's it, to buy a book. Anyway, with SGD $8, I bought a book from MPH moving out sales -- Against Medical Advice.

The book is about a true story of a kid suffering from Tourette's syndrome and OCD -- a disease which controls a person movement involuntary.

As quoted:
"I felt like a boy on the end of a puppeteer's string," he says in the prologue. "What made it worse was that I was also the puppeteer."

Anyway, the last time I read a book that actually made me cried was, P.S. I love you. And by the way, the movie just DON'T do the book any justice!

Yes, I'm also addicted to Sophie Kinsella's shopaholic series. But it's very much shallow compare to this book but I still love the character Becky Bloomwood very much!

Oh, and this book is co-written by James Patterson! Someone you should know if you read mystery.

Anyway, bye bye. Going to do nothing now. Spent the entire half of my day reading this book. They said time is fair to everyone. I'm wasting it.

2010-06-17T00:58:00.006+08:00

Earpiece! :D

This is a pink lip balm, in the shape of cupcake! :D

A fat kind of post.

2010-06-08T01:19:00.005+08:00

Okay, I'm fat. I'm so fat that I can't see my own toes anymore. Everyone is telling me I'm gaining weight. Everyone I hadn't met for one month. And I'm thinking silent means agreement, which means my boyfriend agreed by not disagreeing that I'm fat. When I told him everyone is commenting that I'm fat now, he gleefully replied, "Eat more".

It's all a conspiracy. When I'm too fat to hoist myself up from my bed anymore, he'll dump me for some skinny bitch. I'm so lazy nowadays that I can't be bother to cross the damned road and buy myself chicken rice (why am I even eating that???) for lunch so I sent my boyfriend down instead. All this while I'll be fixated on some games on his iphone.

Bye, I'm too lazy to type now, I think I'll just lie here and wait for someone to carry me to my bed.

Eddie Peng! Too yummy to resist me putting his photos! :D:D:D

The type of guys I like. Well, physically.

2010-06-06T00:17:00.011+08:00

This is the type of guys I like, physically. I know people think I only look at girls, but I do look at guys too. And all my eye candies look something like that in real life.

Tata. Cute. :)

Closer look. hehe. Love his nose!

He don't look that chubby on television anyway. I just like guys who has boyish look and tall, straight nose! Like Elvin Ng!!! :D:D

Anyway, I realised while typing this entry all my eye candies name start with E! Elvin Ng, Eddie Peng and Evan Taubenfeld! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D

Hehe. Can't resist putting a pic of this cutie! :D

BTW, my collegue's brother was classmate with him. MY GWAD!! I can't imagine if I'm in the same class with this cutie!! I'll die of blushing and hyperventilation, seriously!

Random kind of post

2010-06-04T01:29:00.008+08:00

Today marks the beginning of the many nothing-better-to-do-so-I'll-blog days ahead.

Went out.

Don't ask me why I always pose like this.

Tied my hair. Ribbon.

Actually I meant for this to be a long post, but blogger being a bitch and I'm too lazy to crop my photos. So the content will be pretty random here.

The prawn pasta looks like caucasian's version of hokkien mee. Didn't taste that nice though.

MPH having moving out sales at Raffles link, so I bought these books. Been borrowing books from the library too.

Gifts I've received this year:

The bag supposed to be hot pink, but it just didn't show in the photo.
Kthxbye.

2010-05-30T22:27:00.003+08:00

"Few things are sadder than empathy."

How true.
What is it that makes our tears fall everytime someone tell us that they understand exactly what we've been through? It's as if those mere words "I understand" seemed to justify every single falls, every single road blocks we've stumbled through.

Alot of things are running through my mind lately but I don't know how to pen my thoughts down. Even right now. Things like, sincerity, people, and have I spent my life in vain for the past few years chasing things and people I shouldn't have?

I'm just... ...

Well, at least I have you now. I won't be alone. At least not for the near future.

scare

2010-05-29T10:52:00.003+08:00

Let me tell you what kind of person I am.

I am the kind to abandon everything on the ship and just jump, not caring whether if I make it or break it. Things like implications, responsibilities just don't cross my mind in the instant. Things like other alternatives, having a balance of everything, just disappear in that nano of a second.

This is the kind of person that I am, and it makes me scare. Because it applies to everything in my life-- work, friends, love. I quitted without finding the next job, I disappeared without caring what other people thinks. And now, I've invested all my time and effort into you, and when you're away, what do I do now?

2010-05-24T22:11:00.001+08:00

Got home at 3:30a.m. yesterday. :( Slept at four and woke up at 6:30a.m.

I neeeeddddd to sleeeeppp. Byyyyeee.

food.

2010-05-15T13:47:00.004+08:00

The Coffee Club. I know the steak buger looks like some chinese cooked food.

Blackforest and bubble tea. Extra pearls please! :)

Home cooked.

Pizza hut, sea food pizza and wedges.

One of my take away lunch. $2. Huge irl.

ru gou wo xi huan ni gei ni zhao cheng ren he kun rao, na wo jiu mei you xi huan ni.

2010-05-13T22:58:00.002+08:00

Loosely translated:
"
I must not have like you, if my liking for you had given you any trouble.

In another words, I suck at translating.

Things I really want versus things I SHOULD have want.

2010-05-09T15:40:00.002+08:00

Unfortunately, they don't match.

"When we think of failure, failure will be ours. If we remain undecided, nothing will ever change. All we need to do is want to achieve something great and then simply to do it. Never think of failure, for what we think will come about. "

-Maharishi Mahesh Yogi

Why being together is not an appealing option.

2010-04-24T01:06:00.007+08:00

Because, there's many reasons. For starters, personally I feel that marriage without love, is nothing but a whole loads of paper work. The one doing the admin work will curse and swear. And then, there's divorce, where everything is drawn clearly with a line. Yours will be yours, and mine will be mine. And then it's paper work all over again.

I am liken being together to a marriage. I won't and I repeat won't, ever be with somebody if I cannot see forever with the person. I repeated the same mistake several times and I think I learned enough for the same lesson. If you cannot see forever with the person, don't be with him or her, it's heading straight for a heartbreak.

Or perhaps you can argue, sometimes love takes you for a surprise. People you cannot see yourself together with, you might just fall head over heels in love with him/her. I'll say, grow up and catch up with reality. You can try, but you'll fall even harder, not head over heels in love, but flat on your face.

Secondly, above all else, on top of loving him/her, you must love the relationship even more. You must love the state of being together with him/her. You must love the relationship, because only then you will be protective over it. Only then your relationship can stand the flames of tongues, the test of time and temptations from the worldly world. This is what I learned and I realised that I never had a lasting relationship because I never love the relationship. I may have love the other party, but not the present progressive tense of being together.

And lastly, I am not confident of myself. I am not confident that I love the present progressive tense of being together with you enough to stand all the other tests. I don't have the confidence of loving the relationship enough to protect it from all things. If people talks, if we drift apart, if there's third party involved, where will it leave us with? I am not strong enough to say we'll last a lifetime. Nor am I confident to say that I will not stray. Because I am only so young. So are you. We have such a long way to go.

And if status means anything, it is nothing but a whole load of paper work. I have enough of admin job for a long time. Please have a little patience.

I'm still hurting from a love I lost
I'm feeling your frustration
Any minute all the pain will stop
Just hold me close inside your arms tonight
Don’t be too hard on my emotions

Cause I, need time
My heart is numb has no feeling
So while I’m still healing

I really wanna start over again
I know you wanna be my salvation
The one that I can always depend

I'll try to be strong, believe me
I'm trying to move on
It's complicated but understand me

Cause I, need time
My heart is numb has no feeling
So while I’m still healing
Just try and have a little patience, yeah
Have a little patience, yeah

If we hold on together.

2010-04-24T00:26:00.001+08:00

Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You're come so far
Don't throw it away

Live believing
Dreams are for wearing
Wonders are waiting to start

Live your story,
Faith,hope and glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
When clouds roll by
For you and I

Souls in the wind
must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on till the end

Valley, mountain,
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away

Words are swaying,
Someone is praying
Please let us come home to stay

When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams
Will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by

For you and I

Such an old song.

Did you just moved into my head?

2010-04-18T15:33:00.005+08:00

All. The. Time.

2010-04-17T10:54:00.000+08:00

Oh, and I cut five inches of my hair.

Unhappy.

2010-04-05T22:52:00.001+08:00

Monday down, four more days to go.

I found myself in wonderland.

2010-04-03T01:29:00.005+08:00

So I'm capable of feeling this happy all the time?

" I found myself in Wonderland
Get back on my feet again
Is this real?
Is it pretend?
I'll take a stand until the end "

After Monday and Tuesday, even the calender spells W T F. :(

2010-03-29T23:12:00.002+08:00

Nice?
Camwhore a bit with "flowers that don't smell".
I know flash and I don't even look like myself!
Gonna cut hair, so messy! :(
Thanks midzee for the flowers!

2010-03-29T21:37:00.001+08:00

Feels like quitting. :(

Monday blues. :(

2010-03-28T11:37:00.001+08:00

Two days of rest. :( And Monday's coming again. Hate it. :(

Breakeven

2010-03-27T10:51:00.000+08:00

"
Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that’s gonna put her first
While I’m wide awake she’s no trouble sleeping
‘Cause when a heart breaks, no it don’t breakeven, even, no

What am I suppose to do
When the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say
When I’m all choked up and you’re okay

I’m falling to pieces, yeah
I’m falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
‘Cause she’s moved on while I’m still grieving
And when a heart breaks, no it don’t breakeven, even, no

2010-03-25T22:08:00.000+08:00

Hair colors that I like but never had the guts to dye.

2010-03-21T23:14:00.003+08:00

Red heads.

few random things.

2010-03-07T23:59:00.005+08:00

1) Bloody weather so hot. >:(
2) I'm so tired. Slept less than 5 hours a day for 6 days straight. :(
3) Skin break out due to (1) (and (2)??). Sweat like hell everyday.
4) Big big wounds still pain from the fall.
5) Yesterday honey cooked for me. :D
6) Next week gonna be a very hectic week for me. Every single day of the week taken. :(
7) Next next week, also taken :(
8) How to rest???? Work, go out, work, go out. I don't even have enough sleep.
9) No, I don't have a boyfriend.
10) I think I speak less vulgarities these days??

2010-03-03T23:27:00.002+08:00

:( I fell down.

And now, there's two wounds on my hand and one on my leg. :(

Phone conversation.

2010-03-02T23:59:00.006+08:00

And more than anything else, I am afraid that the things I've been busy chasing after are taking me further from the things that really matters to me.

At the end of the day, who, what will be there waiting for me?

2010-03-02T00:30:00.003+08:00

Weather so hot. :(

Mitch Albom (Not quoted directly):
Nobody lies on their death bed and said,
"I wish I work a little longer"

Which reminds me, treasure your loved ones. It's them you wish you had a little more time with.

Hehe.

2010-02-26T23:22:00.001+08:00

2010-02-16T22:49:00.000+08:00

"Well, it seems to me that the best relationships, the ones that last, are frequently the ones that are rooted in friendship. You know, one day you look at the person and see more than you did the night before. Like a switch has been flickered somewhere. And the person who was just a friend is suddenly the only person you can ever imagine yourself with."

Happy V day.

2010-02-13T23:38:00.000+08:00

Found it on fb.

Fall in love. And.
Stay there.

2010-02-12T23:53:00.000+08:00

TGIF!

And almost tgis.

Cutting my hair short.

2010-02-07T23:39:00.003+08:00

Yes, you heard it from me. Thinking of cutting my hair short but not anytime soon, maybe only in late March or something. Well, because I just cut my hair two weeks ago, I find it no point throwing my money away again in a few weeks time.

Anyway, I know I only look good in long hair but I'm sick of it?? So forget it, cut it short, look ugly and just watch it grows.

Probably cutting bangs too. Just sick of my hair. Looks so sleepy all the time.

What's wrong?

2010-02-06T01:59:00.001+08:00

Emo blog with emo entries. Welcome to my life.

After the life we've been through, I know there's no life after you.

2010-02-05T23:15:00.000+08:00

pms?

2010-02-02T22:02:00.002+08:00

:(

I think it'll be a long time before I'll be happy again. Nothing makes me happy. Food, no. Money, no. Shopping, no. Hanging out with friends, not really. Sleeping, no. Nothing.

2010-01-30T11:58:00.000+08:00

Don't promise what you cannot deliver.

idyll.

Makeup base!

Departure.

Some of my reviews.

To be or not to be.

The curse of Vanity.

One year anniversary.

And I go back to December all the time.

Avril's.

I miss alone time.

No title.

Happy Vday to all in advance.

I can feel your heartbeat, he said to me.

Happy!

Nothing beats the original.

Merry Christmas!

Wish I'm skinny like this.

Impromptu visit to the beach.

List of things I abhor

To be myself.

If there's something you can't fake-- it's sincerity.

我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用來我回憶裡 微笑

1. Believing in that "mirage".

Sleepy cat.

This photo because it imitated a genuine smile best.

Things I craved for and still craving for:

pffffttttttttttttttttt

Fat fat.

Because it's fun!

Isn't it some of us?

Things that makes me broke.

Senior year, baby!

PISSED OFF.

Ding Tai Feng.

Happy for two reasons:

Pretty Jessica Lowndes.

Why I love Jessica Lowndes.

Things I don't understand:

Hi warm fuzzy feeling.

Things in my head.

90210 rocks

Sunday afternoons.

KNS, why Jessica Lowndes so hot?!?!?!?

I love my boyfriend. :)

shitting!

Meet Dopey.

Happy belated birthday! :)

webcam. Larger than life.

Flowers for Algernon.

Cluttered.

No title.

BKK

I miss you... :(

Growing up.

And what's up with world cup???

The best thing you could do with SGD $8.

A fat kind of post.

The type of guys I like. Well, physically.

Random kind of post

scare

food.

ru gou wo xi huan ni gei ni zhao cheng ren he kun rao, na wo jiu mei you xi huan ni.

Things I really want versus things I SHOULD have want.

Why being together is not an appealing option.

If we hold on together.

Did you just moved into my head?

Unhappy.

I found myself in wonderland.

After Monday and Tuesday, even the calender spells W T F. :(

Monday blues. :(

Breakeven

Hair colors that I like but never had the guts to dye.

few random things.

Phone conversation.

Hehe.

Happy V day.

Cutting my hair short.

What's wrong?

我寂寞寂寞就好你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑